Is ambivalence bliss?

I really am going to get better about updating but sometimes it's so time consuming thinking of something to post. My time could be much better spent laying on the couch eating carbohydrates and watching reruns of The Nanny until I have a bright idea. Nonetheless, I hope you enjoy whatever random thing I may post, which leads to me to the following.

I do a lot of ranting on here but nothing has been bothering me more lately than my realization of just how ambivalent,self-serving and hypocritical people are.
I'm pretty sick and tired of it really. I think the reason it's so frustrating for me is because I am none of those things (although to be fair, everyone is hypocritical at some point in their life). What's even more frustrating is that for the longest time I thought that I needed to be a better friend to some of the these people. It has been made painfully clear to me that it's not me, it's them.

To quote another blog, everyone complains about the people in their lives playing games. The best way to avoid them is simply choosing not to play along. People only have as much negative influence over you as you allow. That's why I'm done worrying about those who try to be elusive and worrying about whether everyone is having a good time. You can join me if you want. You can wait to see if you get a better offer. Just don't be surprised when you're no longer wanted because the effort it takes to reach you outweighs anything you give in return.


I also can't believe that I wrote about 10 sentences and it got me so pissed. I really need a therapist. And a margarita.